It was a random collections of interviews and videos that I saw today in close quarters that snapped something into place in my head. Fortunately there’s all the room in the world up there. But the more I thought about it, the more sense it started to make. I’ll try to keep this as linear as possible, but it’s made up of multiple parts.
Let’s start here. I can’t believe that someone far smarter than I hasn’t already written about or broadcast this, because on calm reflection it makes perfect sense. The starting point for this line of thought was something I read about Traitor Tot in the book written by his niece Mary Trump, Too much but never enough.
In the book she relates that from his earliest childhood, Trump was desperate for praise and approval from his authoritarian, cruel, and indifferent father. Young Donald wasn’t above elevating his accomplishments with hyperbole to gain praise, and when a younger sibling came along, young Donald wasn’t above mentally and verbally abusing him for his father’s favor.
Mary related how at dinner one night, Donald was verbally abusing his brother trying to get his father’s attention. His older brother Fred Jr. told him to knock it off, but Trump persisted. In frustration, Fred Jr. dumped the bowl of mashed potatoes from the table over Donald’s head. The entire table, including his father roared with laughter. Donald fled the table, swearing to himself that he would never feel weak or humiliated again.
Which leads us to the word nobody is using for Trump, but should be the first to come to mind. Insecure. From his earliest upbringing, Donald J Trump has been one of the most insecure people on the planet, and it has shaped almost everything he has done in his life.
Let’s just go back and do a quick flyby of some of the highlights, or should I say lowlights of Trump’s life, both personal and professional;
- From the time Trump started his first project, Trump overinflated himself to the media. He referred to getting his Manhattan start with a small $1 million loan from his father, which he repaid with interest. Two things. First, there is no such thing as a small $1 million loan. Second, future reporting showed that Trump has never repaid a loan in his life to his father. Image is everything
- Right from the start, Trump’s buildings were a testament to glitz and schlock. Overpriced and over budget, all of the money went into the publicly visual parts of the building. Forget the fact that the windows didn’t seal, the toilets didn’t flush right, and there were crack’s in the walls. The outside of the building and the lobby looked like a high priced San Francisco cathouse. Trump bankrupted four Atlantic City casinos that way, an almost impossible task
- I apologize if I offend, but I think it fair to say that Trump has indulged in a series of trophy wives. And name me another man who would pretend to be his own publicist to give the tabloids in New York the details of his latest sexual escapades with one woman while he was still married to another woman
- As President Trump would hold Oval Office signing ceremonies for signing bills renaming post offices if anybody would show up. He used DC police and national guard troops to break up a peaceful protest so he could march across the square, and hold a bible upside down for a photo op from hell
- In a post presidency interview at Mar-A-Lago, Trump accidentally disclosed the fact that his personal office looks like a flea market in Dayton. He has a WWE belt Vince McMahon gave him, another boxing World Championship belt Mike Tyson gave him, his signed Tim Tebow U of Florida football helmet, and other useless trinkets that most people put in a box in a storage unit
Donald Trump’s insecurity is ingrained in his earliest childhood. And when insecure people make good, they have a natural desire to surround themselves with things. Especially valuable things. And they tend to promote themselves as being more rich, powerful and famous than they are.
This explains Trump’s desire to take all of those classified documents from the White House back to Mar-A-Lago with him. They were valuable, and they were his. Like the character Gollum in The Lord of the Rings, they were his precious. And as the indictment unsealed today showed, he was protective of them. He told his attorneys, Those are MY boxes, and I don’t want anybody looking through MY boxes! They’re mine!
Insecurity. Trump has suffered from it since his earliest childhood, trying to impress a cold and uncaring father. And he has spent his entire life trying to build his ego, his persona, and surround himself with things to make himself feel powerful and successful. But deep in his soul he knows that all it takes is one little f*ck up, and he’s that little kid with mashed potatoes all over his head. And if all goes well, in 6-8 months, in a courtroom in south Florida, Trump will end up with the ultimate legal bowl of mashed potatoes dumped over his head. Don’t touch that dial.